set upon a rock

I've had a lot of mixed feelings over the last couple of days.  I'm scared of the thought of open heart surgery for Kamdyn, but I'm also scared of her not getting it if she needs it.  I just want what is best for her, whatever that may be.  The best way to describe how I feel right now is.....................


Ps 40:1-3 I waited patiently for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry. He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clad, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings. And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord.

While I feel like my feet are sinking in that miry clay........at any moment I could sink and drown.  If have to explain to one more person, if I let my fears over-take me, if........ 

The more I pull, the more I sink, and there is nothing I can do.  Nothing I can do but pray and pray again.  And cry out,  because He will hear me.  God is holding onto my hand.  He is holding tight and giving strength, each day as it is needed.  God is pulling me up and setting my feet on that rock.  A rock of hope and faith. 

Every day is dragging right now and Tuesday cannot come soon enough.  Please pray for wisdom for Kamdyn's doctor's as they make this decision.