Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Decisions

There are days where I second guess myself.  Like the days where a bad report comes home, and I realize that even a common, childhood folly has to be recorded and analyzed.  Or when I'm once again reading statistics of how many opportunities of a task were reached and what percentage of the time she was successful at an activity.

On those days, I wonder about what I am doing?

Am I teaching her that her best is deficient?  Am I teaching her that she has to change to fit into the world?


But I quickly come back to center and to the place where I know in my heart that I am doing what I believe is best for Kamdyn.

As we move into our next big decision for Kamdyn, I have a lot of questions that are running through my mind.

If I push to get her into a mainstream classroom, am I robbing her of the chance to be with people where she will feel like she belongs?

But is it best to choose a self-contained classroom for her? Is it where she would thrive?

Or should I homeschool?

The thing that encourages me as we look forward to making this decision in the near future is the fact that countless parents have gone before us and have chosen all 3 of these options for their child, and they were right for their child.

Knowing that thousands of other parents are weighing this same decision RIGHT NOW gives me peace, because we are all trying to do the best for our kids.  That we have options is a blessings in itself, as well.

So to anyone else who is in this same place, we will make the right decision.  Because we love our kids, and we want what is best.  So let's all take a deep breath and take this one day at a time.








7 comments:

  1. Ah, I needed this post today. We are right in the middle of deciding this for Russell right now. It weighs heavy on my mind. This post reminds me to just breath...

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    1. Jenny, we decided to hold Kamdyn back a year, so I get to stew over this for another year. I'm still not sure what we'll do though.

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  2. We are struggling with these decisions too. Right now she is thriving at preschool but sometimes what comes home as examples of "her" work look more like the work of too much help. But, she's three so it doesn't matter as much. I struggle with not knowing when that will change. Good luck and trust your decisions, you are the MOM!

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  3. YES!
    I've read so many folks who either judge others decisions or spend so much time justifying their own, when really -
    absolutely - choosing what is best for your child is what is right.
    And I will also note, that this is not a forever decision, you can change your patch when the time is right to do so.
    Good words, You are right.

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    1. I keep reminding myself of that too! No decision is forever. If it doesn't work, we can try something else.

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  4. The truth is that you are thu probably don't know yet where she will feel like she truly belongs. For Cora, I hope she feels that way in a variety of settings... with her peers without disabilities, with her peers with disabilities, with adults and with children. But when they're still young it's so hard to know what they will ultimately want. But you as her parents are the best ones to make this decision for her now. And the decisions can shift and evolve when you see how she does. I have faith in you.

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