in the nowness

My whole life, I was always striving for what comes next.  Always looking for the next moment, the next move.  When I was in school, I couldn't wait to be out of school.  When I was finished college, I was ready to get married.  Once I was married, I was ready to have a baby.  It's hard to remember those days with only one little life to care for.  The days when I could just lay on the sofa and stare at her.  I would go back and tell myself to drink it all in.  To hold her and rock her to sleep every night.  But I layed her in bed and let her go to sleep on her own, because that's what I thought good mothers did-- teach them to go to bed on their own.  Well, she's four now, and she does go to bed on her own, but she would have figured that out either way.
Austin was born shortly after Madison turned a year and a half, and there I was again focusing on what would come next.  What job or path was I going to take next?  So I went back to teaching.
I can finally say after all the years of looking ahead that I am finally just enjoying the nowness.  Because if you're always looking at tomorrow, you'll miss today.  What could today bring.  Well, it could be a walk in the rain, or a picnic in the sun.  A day trip to the beach or a day in pajamas. 
Along with my gift of Kamdyn, God has given me this gift of enjoying right where He has me at this moment. Being content with life just as it is, nothing more, nothing less.

Today...
Stay a little longer
Last a little longer
Let me enjoy your sweetness

But when the sun sets
As it tends to do
Help me remember you