Thankful

I'm in my rocking chair right now, snuggling my baby and rocking her. Pacabel's Canon is playing on the lullaby Pandora station. Holding my sweet baby and hearing this song, that we played the day of our wedding, makes me go back to that day. I think of all the things we've experienced: joys, many joys, heartaches, fights, making up, forgiving, loving, people coming and going from our lives, those who have supported us and loved us. And I can't help but feel sentimental and above that SO thankful.
Truth be told, if we had done this life our way, we wouldn't have all these babies we have today. We wouldn't live in this house we live in. Our lives would be so different. But God had a better plan for us. And I'm so thankful for it. I'm thankful for that house that we thought we wanted catching on fire 2 days before closing. I'm thankful for each "surprise", haha, of being pregnant that led us to welcome a new precious life. I'm thankful for the 4 times that a doctor held a baby out for us to see for the first time, and every time Brad and I would just look at each other, both crying tears of joy. As long as I live, those moments will be my favorites. I'm thankful for Down syndrome. I'm thankful that, even though I make mistakes and feel like I don't know what I'm doing sometimes, that I get to be these kids' mama.

With the pressure of Christmas upon us, I want to rest in this place this year. A place of being grateful for our family and not obsessing over what we can and can't get them.

Thankful......

Surprise" # 5 hopes you had a wonderful Thanksgiving